Smiles :)

I have to convince myself that he's still around, or atleast out there... somewhere.... and hopefully isn't giving up..

strike that last part... i just called him, he's still out there... :)

I've found the past couple of days so difficult, with exams over and no homework, i have had nothing to do.. and found so many different things to keep my mind off him..

Through the thousands of tears (I have a permanent river in my bedroom now), I have come out the other side happy with a new outlook on life:

I've got it good, so I should be all smiles.. :)

I don't wanna be remembered for the tears, I wanna be remembered for the smiles :)

I'd do Anything...

I'm just.. so lost for words right now.. I've been such a mess lately and I think i'm still recovering..

Have you ever woken up and just wanted to be with that one person?.. it doesn't matter where, just as long as i'm with him... Well that's me every morning, and the problem is that I can't be with him... I can't catch a bus with him, go out to lunch with him, go to the beach with him, wrap my arms around him and feel his around me, feel his soft lips against mine... inhale his scent...
It's all left up to my imagination..

But as he so sweetly put it this afternoon, we love each other, and that's all that matters.

I've been doubting my strength.. I wasn't sure if I was strong enough to make it through the hard parts..
Sometimes missing him can put me in a state of agony, a pain that only he can eliminate with a simple 'Hey! I've missed you so much baby, how are you?'..

Justin, I love you soo much, you know that..
and 'I'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms..'

Augustana..

Well this week was hard, very hard...

With exams starting on Tuesday, it has been nothing but school, homework, study, stress and tears... And it doesnt appear to be getting any easier.

When I tried to tell my parents about my want to move to Adelaide for uni, my Dad freaked, and the conclusion was that he will never let me go, but I will find a way.. :) I'm determined... Nothing will hold me back.

So my task not only for this week, but for the rest of the year, is to become more independent, and prove to my Dad that I can take care of myself, and that I am more than capable of moving to Adelaide by myself...

So tomorrow, I shall apply for some jobs.. Wish me luck! :)